Lots of feelings at this point...

So I have been going to the doctor and perinatologist every week this last little bit. Yesterday was my last appointment until next week. I have had many ultrasounds throughout my pregnancy and have gotten emotional several times and felt a huge sense of relief come over me when I first see them both moving and know that they are okay. When you have one baby and feel movement you know that he/she is okay; when you have two you aren't sure if it is just one moving in there or if they are both okay. I have been overcome with emotion that #1 modern machines can let me know that they are both doing great; and #2 that they have been great throughout this pregnancy. I feel so blessed! What a miracle this is! Yesterday I found out that my one placenta is starting to fail, however, they will be here so soon that it doesn't matter. For some reason this struck me hard. What if it started to fail earlier? What if? What if?...I don't know why I have been so blessed, but how grateful I am. One baby is weighing 4 pounds 1 ounce and the other one is weighing in at 4 pounds 11 ounces. The doc says they can come anytime, but best if they stay in for another two weeks in order to avoid the NICU. This means I have two weeks (hopefully) to get everything done before these two join our little family. I just hope and pray that all goes well! I am worried about my other two sweet boys whom I love more than ever. Life is going to change dramatically for them and I just hope that they take the change well! As I am writing this and thinking about them I am getting emotional. Okay, so I am full of emotions or maybe hormones at this point. I have been scared for them to come, but I am starting to feel ready. Beez will be home a lot and we can spend some family time together while we get to know our new additions. I know that life is going to be crazy, that my house will not be clean, that I am not going to get sleep or be able to sit down because I won't be able to keep up, and that I will be completely unorganized. I just hope that I can accept this and enjoy it; it is going to go by so fast and then it'll be over. And I tell ya what...it is going to be a whole lot of fun with my family of boys!! Also, can I just tell you that I have the best husband in the whole world! Just when I think that I can't love him more it happens. He is so perfect for me and I am crazy about him! I can't adequately express how grateful I am for him, but somehow I feel like if he is in this with me then I can do anything! I love ya babe!