NEWS FLASH!!!

There are not many things in my life that have happened that would earn this kind of a title, but this week something happened that I would definitely consider big news. I am pregnant and have not been feeling so hot, so I called the doctor to get something to help me out. They didn't want to help me unless I had an appointment scheduled so we scheduled one and they called in a prescription that I have been very grateful for. If it wouldn't have been for this I wouldn't have scheduled an appointment because this is my third and I felt like everything was fine. I mean what do they do that is that important anyways? They check your vitals, listen for the heart beat, etc. So, my appointment was Wednesday and this is when it happened...I always make Beez go to the first appointment when they do the full exam, but he hadn't gotten any sleep at work the night before and was sleeping so I decided to just let him sleep. The doctor did his thing and then decided that we should do a quick ultrasound because I was mearsuring a little big and wanted to make sure there was only one in there. At this point I tell him very passoinately that, 'I cannot have more than one.' We go in the ultrasound room and as he is turning on the machine he asks, 'why I can't have more than one.' I tell him I have a 3 1/2 year old boy and 1 1/2 year old boy, my husband is gone A LOT, and we are living in my mom's basement. He starts and as I look up at the screen behind me I see two destinct babies, each with their own heart beat...this is when I start to panic. TWINS, there must be some kind of mistake! The doctor tells me at this point 'not to worry, it might just be a cyst.' I am not convicned, even though I am not medically trained I am smart enough to know that cysts don't have heartbeats. He says that he is going to send me to get a more extensive ultrasound. I am trying to hold back my tears when I call Beez to tell him. He doesn't believe me so the doctor gets on and tells him. An hour later Beez and I go get a better ultrasound in which we find out that they are 100% sure there are two of them in there. As I watched those two little bodies squirming around I fall in love and decide that this is exciting.
Since then I have been through many different stages: complete panic, shock, excitement, reality hitting, etc. I have so many concerns: Are the babies going to be okay?, Am I going to be able to be a good enough mom to four so young?, Am I going to have to have a c-section?, Are they going to end up in the NICU?, Are we going to be able to get everything ready?, Are we going to be able to afford it?, Has there been some kind of mistake up in heaven? The first couple of nights I would wake up in the middle of the night and lay awake unable to sleep because my mind is going so fast and I can't stop in from racing. People have tried to help us think of the things we need to do or things we need to decide, but to be honest I don't want to think of anything like that right now, I just want it to be able to sink in first. Now we are frantically trying to find a house...step #1. Ironically, timing worked out perfect and it seems as though the offer on our last house is going to be accepted. Funny how that works out, huh!
I think it is interesting the way life goes. We have no idea what is going to happen, what life is going to bring. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father sees the bigger picture and knows what paths we need to take. As I look back on the last year while we have been trying to figure out a place to move and trying different things I have been so disappointed everytime something didn't work out, but I realize now that none of those things were meant to be. Heavenly Father knew about this monumental detail coming up in our lives and guided us perfectly! The crazy thing is I have no idea how this is all going to be, but I am excited to find out and confident that with the Lord on my side we can make it through anything.
Now that I have poored out my soul to you I will stop. In case you are wondering I am serious about all this. This is a true story! I am really going to have twins...stay tuned to see how it all goes.