The Fireman's Wife

There is actually a book titled The Fireman's Wife and two different people have given it to me. I must admit at first I thought it was a silly book, but after reading it I think about it quite often. It is written by the wife of a fireman and she is telling her story, which I can relate to more and more all the time. What does being a fireman's wife mean? I am finding this out more and more all the time. Let me share a little bit about what I have found out it the last 4 1/2 years of being this...
Yep, this is my husband. Not only is he a babe but he is my best friend. My mom told me once that when she first met Brian and she knew how much I liked him, he said he wanted to be a fireman and she wondered if I understood what I was getting myself into. I told her then that I didn't have any idea and that she should have warned me. She asked me if I would have done anything different and I can honestly say 'not for a second.'
Yep, these are my two sweetest boys ever!!! Any of you who have children of your own know the desire that you have to give them the very best! They have received the title of 'The Fireman's Children.' So, don't get me wrong, I am not trying to say that being the wife or children of a fireman is all bad, it's just different. It has it's unique set of circumstances. I mean who gets to go on vacation pretty much the whole month of September? Who gets to decide two days before that they're going to Moab for a few days? We do! Who gets the whole day with their daddy to do whatever they want...like go to the park? And when these boys get older and realize what a treat it is to be able to go visit their daddy working at the fire station whenever they want or drive around in the fire truck or ambulance. And how many boys get to say, 'my daddy is a fireman?' These kids do!
But, then there are the times that I have to be patient. Like when he has been gone for five whole days of the week and I feel like I am going to go crazy! Or when I hear about bad fires on the news and wonder if he is there. There was one time he got pricked with the same needle that a patient with Hepititas A did because the ambulance had to slam on their brakes and then he had to go through all these tests. There are plenty of nights I lay in bed and wonder if I should be worried? A fireman in Provo/South Salt Lake, Utah can't be in too much danger...right? One thing that is frustrating is when you are so excited for him to come home and then he has to sleep because he hasn't got a blink of sleep. And those weekdays that he is home all day really just throws off your daily schedule. I find myself feeling a certain way and then wondering if this is valid, should I feel this way? It gets old showing up to 90% (okay so maybe it isn't that much, but it seems like it) of events by myself and kids.

But, then I have to remind myself of what my mom asked me? "Would I have done anything different if I had known what I was getting myself into five years ago?" Nope. I have the best husband in the world, who is the best daddy to my children! So, just like everyone else in this world who has to put up with varying circumstances I can't change them so I better make the best of them.